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Today i come into work and i find out that this crazy student that was expelled from mercy was back again today trying to get in, after the recent shootings in virginia and the ever growing trend of school shootings since colombine, school officials arent taking any crap from anyone.
Besides that i just walked out onto the main floor and i saw a student that i havent seen since he was here in january threatening to sue the school and was in an outrage, i thought he came back because he had more problems but when he sees me he smiles. He then thanks me for everything that ive done for him and gives me a big hand shake, he told me that he really appreciates when people actually listen and evaluate the problems instead of just blowing off the students, and that i was a gigantic help to his financial situation, it very well came from the heart. As of recent ive had several students thank me for my past efforts to help them and it feels great every single time, i like making a positive impact on peoples lives and i wish everyone could feel the way i do when it happens.
I work in a financial aid office and all i ever hear is peoples problems, and i find it fascinating that just a little bit of effort helps these students a long way and at the end of the day they just need someone who will listen and try to help even if its not in their abilites.
Courtesy is contageous, maybe if we as people took just a little bit of time out of our day to help the fellow man to our abilities this world wouldnt be so fucked up, but then again that sounds too easy dont it. This higher education thing isnt too bad after all.

Here goes nothin...

Edit: This is hard.

Well sofis cat bombay has been diagnosed with diabetes, at first when she told me i felt kinda bumbed, but now that im sitting here looking for no-kill animal shelters, i feel even worse then before, and its hitting me hard right now. I hope sofi and rip make the right decision on what to do with bombay, i already miss her and its only been two days since ive seen the cat =/. She is like a baby to both of us, and it kind of gives me an idea of how a parent feels when they're child is diagnosed with a disease. Well ima keep searching and im going to pray for the best.

im an idiot

oh god im trying to register for my classes and it seems like im going to have to take another day off in order to register because i need permission to register for one of my classes and ofcourse i have to go in person to see some guy who will only see me for about 2 minutes and gimme some little paper saying i could do it. I need to think fast, what should i do if i dont have time to actually go during the day?

i really have to go to a doctor or something because this fucking sleeping problem is putting me in hot water =/

wow i just got home and i am beat... my brother is still playing Resident Evil 4 and my room is a huge mess, i gots some cleanin to do in the mornin!!

but im starting to really like live journal, as much as i look like i dont like it when sofi goes on it, its really starting to become cool to me again.

Well as for an update on my life, im enjoying my time at mercy college, students are really starting to open up to me and prefer to see me over the other counselors, i guess thats what happens when you give a student the time of day to explain themselves before telling them what to do. I think that with my attitude i could get very far in this field, but i dont know if its the right feild for me yet. I really enjoy helping people out and delivering good news, and when its bad news i have to find a way to resolve it. As of lately ive noticed that i have a nack for figuring things out, i get a joy out of figuring out how things work and how to resolve the issues that lay within. I still do feel that even after figuring out everyone else's problems i should work on mine and figure out how to optimize myself =D.

And after 2 years and 4 months me and sofi are still going strong. I just really have to take the time out to say that i love you more than anything i have ever known sofia and i thank god everyday that we are together! you've made me so happy and i know that we've had our problems here and there but what couple doesnt? And if theres one more thing i have to thank you for sofia its for showing me what it is to express how i feel about others, i try to look at things so complex when the truth of the matter is that its all so simple, everyday i learn something new from you sofia and about you, all i have to say is that i did a hell of alot more this year then i ever have before, Thank you.

Today was pretty slow here but none the less fun. Im really enjoying my new job and my coworkers kick ass. I seriously lucked out on this one and i thank god once again for this oppourtunity to prove myself in the business world. 1 years experience in financial aid looks really good for my first full time position.

Im excited cause todays friday nuggas!! I finally get to see my woman again after a week of being apart. I really miss sofia and im excited to spend 2 days with her again =D. Im pretty low on cash but im gonna milk this weekend for all its worth!!

Sofi i think you owe me some food!!

i dont know why im feeling like this but i feel like my heart is gonna explode my blood is pumping really fast...

someone left and empty blue folder at this computer desk and its mine now >=D maybe now i can organize my paper work haha o god do i feel good =D

tommorow me and sofi complete 1 year........... OMG my heart is going to explode!!! i love her so much =D

i keep wakin up mad early now.... i sorta like it =D. today me and sofi complete 11 months! im tryin to think of what to do theres just soo much to do. i got about 8 hours to get ready for diz. im sorta feelin that chicken and fries from yesterday, i haven't eatin that greasy in a looong time. and im not going to either but it just sucks that really good food has to be greasy =(. o well back to slimmin down for me =D

i just love her so much. i can't picture being without her, she completes me. sofi.......

Shit happens and then you get hit by a bus..........

W00t! im in berkeley right now just chillen in the library just gettin to know the school more. It's pretty nice so far and it looks promising. The past couple of days have been really fun, thanx to dave,shookie,brian,gaby, and the list goes on, they all helped me out and cheered me up this week, i really needed it. So far everything is good, lets see how long it is before it fucks up again.

Damn its been a lil while since i last posted, right now life took the only turn on me. Post on my days.

Friday- Went shopping for some more clothes and graduation outfit, hung out with matt and jose all day, went really good as usual its always fun with jose and matt.

Saturday- Went to manhattan in the morning, got my haircut, on my way out i got into an argument with my cousin about the shit she did here, im not disclosing it, went to CF to see if i saw anyone, but decided to vent some anger on DDR. I did see sean, susan, mariela and osh. But i got a weird vibe from all of them except osh so i sort of backed off and didn't talk much to them. Came back home got into a lil argument with my mom.

Sunday- Day before Graduation, i went to go chill with some people that were goin to the pride parade, decided not to go so i stood around co-op with brian helping him with his ordeal with melissa which really killed me to see him like that. Love is a weird thing, it can make you do so many nice things, and many negative things as well =-/. We went down and i saw Gaby so i chilled with her a lil, it was fun we talked about alot of stuff and i got to see her try on her bathing suit O.O! lol. Went to chill with matt like at 6 played massive DDR at his house and then came back. Got into a huge argument with my mom and went through a pretty bad breakdown.

Monday- Graduation Ceremony, ive never seen my mom so happy, when i received my diploma she was happy for once, not once have i heard her ever say im proud of you, but atleast she smiled. The one thing that made my day was when my dad whispered to me when he hugged me, "im proud of you son" i held in my tears, i felt good for once. I hung out with jose as much as i could, our familys went to eat. Jose proposed to his girlfriend before he left, now their engaged, love is a beautiful thing, im so proud of jose and what hes doing with his life, yet i realize the gap i have in mine when i see his. Im really gonna miss him alot, he was there for me everytime i broke down or needed someone to talk to, always there to give me advice on everything and always involved himself in my problems even when he didn't have to. Ima make sure to go to florida on my free time. Went home, sat in bed just thinking everything out, life sucks heh.

Tuesday- Hung out with jose and played our last handball game in NY. He beat my ass lol. Went to queens with Matt, Ray, and socheath. Had a DDR tourney, i got 220 perfects on A, not bad i beat matt and ray lol. Came home and just went to sleep.

today- Did nothing till 4, went to a battle of the bands with TY and hung out with my bro thats about it, im home now..

"This Time Imperfect"
I cannot leave here, I cannot stay,
Forever haunted, more than afraid.
Asphyxiate on words I would say,
I'm drawn to a blackened sky as I turn blue.

There are no flowers, no not this time,
There'll be no angels gracing the lines,
Just these stark words, I find.
I'd show a smile, but i'm too weak,
I'd share with you could I only speak,
Just how much this, hurts me.

I cannot stay here, I cannot leave,
Just like all I loved, I make believe.
Imagine hard, I disappear, seems,
No one will appear, here and make me real.

There are no flowers, no not this time,
There'll be no angels gracing the lines,
Just these stark words, I find.
I'd show a smile, but i'm too weak,
I'd share with you could I only speak,
Just how much this, hurts me.

I'd tell you how it haunts me,
I'd tell you how it haunts me,
(cuts through my day, and sinks into my dreams.)
I'd tell you how it haunts me,
(cuts through my day, and sinks into my dreams.)
You don't care that it haunts me.

Oh,
There are no flowers, no not this time,
There'll be no angels gracing the lines,
Just these stark words, I find.
I'd show a smile, but i'm too weak,
I'd share with you could I only speak,
Just how much this, hurts me.

Just how much this, hurts me.

Just how much you...

Again yesterday was fun again. I went with my cousin to the stage around 6 since my mom got home late, and we chilled with Bryan, David, and like 15 other people at the stage. My cousin can't talk english so there was a language barrier between her and the dudes i know, she was dissin on them in spanish like "Tu crees que esto es un microphino CABRON!!" and they would be like "Damn you one ignorant ass if you can't understand me" and way more vulgar stuff than that but it was hilarious. Hung out with the goths and skaters, met gabbey.... god shes hot... we were play fighting all day it was O.o fun. If my mom gets back late im probably stayin around here again, but if not i really wanna go to cf, haven't seen my pals in a week. Ill bring my cousin who only speaks spanish lol. Well Gotta go get my Graduation outfit PZ

Yesterday really fuckin fun, in the morning i was looking for matt so i couldn't find his ass, than i walked by his art class and saw him coloring something. As i looked in the window this big fat black dude thought i was starin him down so when class finished he came out and stared me down, so naturally i stared him down even worse so he looked away and walked away lol punk. I was with Matt,Jose,David, and Taz yesterday just chillen outside of popeyes goin nutz, we were just crackin on the funny shit that happened at the parade with the Kings and girls.

Me and matt went to his house and along the way we found mitchell, he was checking out lil 12 year old girls lmao. So than we had the only 4 hour DDR session.I finally figured out So Deep and Afronova, even max unlimited (Even though i only passed it once). Matt had to go to work so we left on bus and he took his bike, than me and mitchell just stood at his job for like 2 hours getting chicken and biscuits, and just havin mad fun messin around with the staff, there was a dude that gay dude that was crosseyed, matthew called him gay and he got pissed than matt explained to me that Gays and Fags are two different races of homosexuals, like calling a rican a dominican. Bah it was just fun as hell.

I got home and my cousin came from PR i was like so happy to see her yet so tired from all the ddr. So i took her out to walk around and we talked about alot of stuff, she had just gone through something that a couple of other girls i know have gone through, which gets me even angrier seeing as how i met this guy and he was all nice when i was around her. But what can i do shes in PR and im here, but shes gonna be here for a month so!!! i gets to chill everywhere hehehe. The past couple of days really did me some good, its been fun and i love all of yall, thx alot.

PS:Me and Raymond stumbled upon a 1969 stingray in City Island for 2000 and under! (Looks at mariela)